My last Avengers image for the week. If anyone talks to be about Infinity Wars I will smack them. I’ve been looking at Tsawwassen.
Mutant Diet Phase 7 Day 26
I’m coming up to the first month of Phase 7, which I’m hoping is a turning-point phase. The funny part is I don’t know in what direction this is turning.
I had a tough conversation yesterday where I found myself stressing out over the diet and the workouts. I was basically saying that I was failing. But how can anyone be failing on a voyage when they don’t know where they are going? The old diet traumas lead me to always pretty much hate myself no matter what. There is always room for improvement and there’s always room for self abuse.
Since this pattern of behaviour is spectacularly wasteful I am looking to achieve the following:
- Improve my own self-image. This means when I look in the mirror I try to be neutral or look for a simple positive statement. I think neutral will be a good start. Fair? Compassionate? Reasonable?
- Determine what results from diet fitness I am trying to achieve. My key point where I offend myself is the gut-overhanging-the-belt-thing. If I can lose that, I think I can live with myself.
- Accept and try to be happy with yourself that the diet/fitness management processes are permanent. Maybe one day I won’t have to be in these painful correction phases. That’s a nice goal to think about.
On Tuesday next week I’m doing a weigh in and measure because I’ll need it for medical history but also I want to see if I can just see it as a mark in path. I’d like to see if there’s a way to correlate that number to the visual goal. It may not work, but it will be interesting to see if I can make a healthier connection with pounds and inches and my perception of self.
