Avengers Endgame tonight at 6 PM. Then the media blackout ends. That’s 10 PM Saint John time.
Mutant Diet Phase 10 Day 35
Hah. I just realized I forgot to count the alcohol from yesterday. Oops. It was a blow out cheat day and I have to be super careful today.
Cheat days are a double edged sword. You feel a relief to let go, but there’s a kind of guilt mixed with fear that you’ll go back to being even more of a blimp. It gives fuel to the inner self deprecating voice. But that voice knows nothing but hatred. When you are being strict of diet and fitness, it says it’s not good enough – that you’ll never get there. But of course when asked the voice has no idea of where “there” is. It doesn’t care. Its job is to screw me up.
How uplifting for a Sunday morning.
